5/9/07

Today, I asked Emily if she could ask Steven if he likes me. Cause theres a little voice inside my head thats saying "Steve likes you! It's so obvious!" And stuff like that. So I asked her, the next time she sees him I asked her if she could ask him if he likes me, in private of course. I didn't want Emily to ask him in front of his friends, that'd be so humiliating! Then all his friends would know and they're complete jerks! I should know, I'm in their class! I really hope that Steven likes me! Cause if he does, and I mean truly does, then I can ask Em if she can tell Steve that I like him too! And then we'd be dating and won't even know about it, you know? Isn't so romantic?! Just kidding, or am I O_o? Cause, seriously only seeing him once or twice a year is really stressful and makes me nervous! On Open House, I told Em I was nervous since Steve was here, and when we were walking past them, Emily was singing the wedding song!!! It was SO annoying! And embarassing-ish!! If Steve likes me, I don't know what I'd do but I'd be happy!! And I hope if he does like me, its not just one of his or his friends' sick jokes. Cause if I saw him again, and we told each other how we felt and we do the whole thing where he says "I love you" or something like that, and I say "I love you too" or something like that, and we'd kiss or something, Steve runs away and I wouldn't know why, he'd tell his friends, they'd laugh, I'd be heart broken and yada yada yada. All that wonderful, heart breaking, humiliating stuff!! STEVE YOU BETTER LOVE ME CAUSE I LOVE YOU!! Oops, did I just say that outloud

5/2/07

Open House is finally over!! I was so nervous before I got up on stage. I felt like I was gonna throw up . But the first time I got up there, it wasn't so bad! I just pretended it was like an ordinary practice, and the best part was, I couldn't even find my family! That made me feel SO much better! Cause Sean brought his friends along, Peter and Nick E. Colin was there too, but he was more of the prop man. After, we went to the gym to get food and bid on stuff. I didn't bid on anything, cause there was nothing there I really liked. But after the play, it was SO stressful :`(! Steve was there! I was so nervous and stressful. Cause it was the first time I've seen him all year, and usually, the first impressions are the worst. I couldn't take it! I finally let myself go, and I broke down. I finally started to cry. Cause it was the last time I'd ever seen him until grad. But luckily, Casey was there to help me through. We got home at like, 10:10 p.m, and I went to put my stuff away, got in my pjs, and I went in my bed and cried until 10:45.God, I felt like I was gonna die! Cause Sean and his friends were buggin me, and Steve was hangin around with them! I just couldn't handle it! Well the next day, I felt so much better. But I was still upset . I'm gonna write more later.

4/28/07

Okay. I have a crush on this cute boy named Steven, he used to go to our school last year, but sadly....he got kicked out and now he's not at our school this year. AND I JUST FOUND OUT I LIKE HIM OVER THE SUMMER!!!!! And now I can't see him . Its so sad. My love life, is kinda like a fairytale. Kinda. I love someone, I just found out I have feelings for him, I think he likes me too, I find out I can't see him anymore. Don't you think its kind of like a fairytale? I think it is...kind of. I have been picking up signs from him last year. 1) He's the only one of my brother's friends thats nice to me, 2) I saw that he had fuzzy, kitty stickers and he was handing them out to people and the next day, I found one on my locker door and there wasn't a kitty sticker on any of the other lockers 3) He even shares things with me and he only shares things to his friends or the people he really likes. So, ya those are a few signals I've been picking up from him. He is SO cute! If I had a picture of him, I'd put it up here. Too bad I don't. but he is so cute. I mean, do you know how hard it is to find a guy who's cute AND nice?! It's not that easy. Most guys, as I'm sure most of you girls out there reading this already know, a guy will only like a girl because of her appearance. Or if a guy is the most shallow of shallows, only care about how big the girls hips are, and how big her chest is (ew). And they'll hit on any girl wearing a mini skirt. SO BE WARNED!!! Girls, who are girly girls unlike myself who wear skirts, if a guy asks you out. Before you answer, find more about him. Cause like I said, most guys will hit on any girly girl in a mini skirt. So be careful. You'll never know what he'll try to do. That's all for now. I'll write more later. I hate my love life, yet I do cause its like a fairytale, kinda......

4/28/07

Every year at our school, we have this Youth Conference, thing and I have no idea what they do there cause I don't go. So since there was only 5 people in our class, counting me. We went on a field trip, even though one person didn't go to the field trip cause he wasn't feeling well. So now it was only 4 people going. And we went to the Dundrin Castle in Hamilton. It was pretty cool. We got to see all sorts of things that people did a long time ago. We got to have a tour inside the castle, and we saw like the servant's lounge, the rooms, kitchens, and all sorts of room. And I learned something. For guys who were like 6 years old, you'd have to wear a dress , I forget why. Suckers....anyway. We also got to see a museum next door. And we saw the stuff from the War of 1812 (Arrogant Worms sing that song....Burn, burn, burn and we're the ones that did it...sorry. ) and World War I. We got to see what they wore, and what weapons they used. It was quite interesting. At the end, this is the good part (for me), we got to go to the gift shop. And I got, a teddy bear, Titanic book and a book of poetry and two candy cane things. And after we got all our stuff we went back, and on the way back home, this is funny, one of my friends named Bethany and Madison were making like this news thing with Maddie's camera. And she did stuff like Save The Trees Club and Cleanarama and stuff like that. And they interviewed me, my teddy bear and another guy who came with us, Skylar (total idiot ). We couldn't stop laughing. And once we got there, Madison went home since her mum drove us to the castle and back. So it was just me, Bethany, Skylar and our teacher. Oh and the Youth Conference was only for people in grade 7 and up. So the elementary kids couldn'to go. Even though the grade 6 kids did go with us, even though they took the bus. Once we got back to the school, me and Bethany were HYPER from the candy we ate. We washed the boards, literally, and asked if we could go outside and we did and we ran around and swang on the swings. Bethany didn't want to walk to the swings since there was mud under it, so she had to go around and reach the swing. She eventually got one of her shoes in the mud and she got upset, since her shoes were white. And she was stuck. She couldn't get off, since she had white socks on also, it was funny. And some kid tried to step on her shoes and she got upset. She said they were crying. She also said she could talk to them and they could talk right back. Cause she said that they had tongues so they could talk. I still have some of my candy too. It's gooooooood . Well, I better go and write some stuff tomorrow. 'Till next time !